Open letter to reader..:)

Dear readers, how are you all? ^_^

I am asking with a broad smile on my face. The reason is because I am "happy". Since I take the first step to reveal my weaknesses on this blog, things have been progressing very well. I think, it is true about knowing yourself and being objective as the key to progress in life.

I feel that everything I am going through up to today is whatever battle I need to overcome to be a "confident" me. I believe my realization of my weaknesses has helped me to see more reasons to stand up for myself.

With that note, I hope things are going well in your life too. What I mean by going well is not necessarily not having a problem but having problems that help to make you a better person
or help you to overcome a much important struggle (i.e the problem of having to speak up or present a case in a seminar or something that will eventually overcome your fear of speaking up in public).

Yesterday I was forced to speak up for myself when I was requested to present a report on an outbreak case. What I found most interesting was, how thoughtful people can be. My seniors were all there but they were very kind to ask relevant questions without having to put me under so much pressure. You would not believe that I actually spent one entire week worrying about it and spent a night without a wink. I could not sleep thinking about it. It was probably the shortest presentation I ever made in my life but it cost me a week of peaceful thoughts. ^_^ It did sound ridiculous isn't??

Then today, again I am forced to speak up for myself. My heart couldn't stop beating and I am scared as hell if I come out speaking incoherent. I would sound so unprofessional and just how embarrassing that would be. I told myself " This is the real deal. There is no fight without willing to argue. But when I do speak, I only need to listen to me and my inner voice , speaking truthfully without stupidly worrying about what they might throw back at me". I did it. I won my second day battle.

I found sticking your head out is a much better way to counter problems in a given situation where "war of words" is the main game. It is the real "intelligence" game. The one who speaks the best with the right words will outwit the rest. I am not yet good at it. But I am on my way of building my confidence in "speaking the right thing for the right reason without the fear of rejection and condemnation".

I am open to be disputed. I am willing to be subjected to rude condemnation and remarks. I no longer fear people criticizing me on whatever matters. Those who cares will point out to you their needs and their problems with you. I think people with the most problem are those who do not even engage you in or never even tried to speak the truth to you.

It doesn't mean I am not hurt if derogatory remarks are used but one of my finest quality is the ability to see the kind meaning in every action. That will help. I don't ask much. I mean I do walk away from "trouble" which double my trouble.

I am actually very tired today. But I am happy that I have to write about it. I really want to share it with you all because this is how it helped me to find me, by revealing my inner thoughts and struggle to you.

Thank you so much, my readers and my blog.

Hope to see you more in the future