I feel that when we finished our schooling years, often we are left with the void of not knowing what to do next?. We start with zero and keep on going forward with no goal or whatsoever particular in mind. If we are to look for a career we couldn't be picky and just take whatever opportunity that comes our way. Soon at mid length of our affair with our first job, we would be thinking about our suitability in the career and if it is paying us enough for survival. In no time we would call it quits and head start with another better paying job. That's what happened to me.
When I had my first job, my colleagues were mostly youngsters in their teens who had their own share of troubles like most youngsters went through. Since I was already a little learned, I became their confidant. However since I spent much of my time with them, I thought I was catching up with their way of life as well. Instead of becoming mature, I was going backwards to becoming childish. I had a great fun with them but things turned a little different when I met my ex-varsity friend on one fateful day.
He must had been working as a public officer for sometimes when we crossed path during a visit to a hospital. He looked very "matured" and "learned" that I wondered what kind of crisis he needed to overcome to age that "quick". Our fateful meeting that day left me with an unforgettable impression of the kind of difference it would make to make a "man" or a "person".
It lingered on my mind for a long time on how nice it would be to add value in my character by being in a situation that could possibly help to "mature" me. I realized then how important it was when I felt how small, unlearned and insignificant I was by standing right next to that friend of mine. I could feel that he had matured in a short time and it felt so enviable. I envied the kind of experience that could change me to become a character with some depths.
That was when I decided to venture out and learn more about the outside world. I was looking for more "fun" or what most people called "experience". I would like to know the "kings" the "servants", the "rich", the "poor", the "deaf, the "blind", the "mute" and whoever possible that could mould me to become a better me. Someone who can proudly stand on her own because she knows where is her place and what really matters to her.
After I quit my first job i got another job knowing exactly the poor performance of the company I was about to enter. With courage, I put my both feet in the company with no second thought. The only goal I had in mind then was to build up a better character by allowing my self in deep water. I wanted to learn how to keep my head above the water. It was indeed tiring but nevertheless fun. The fun wore out soon after and I was forced to accept the hard truth of life. It is a fact that one place can only offer you so much to learn about and more than often they cannot please you in all area of your needs. Even worse if they cannot meet your immediate needs like the needs to be closer to your family and friends. In that situation, you have no choice but to find a way out for yourself.
Again I changed to another job and this time I kept things down for a much more peaceful life. However, it was short-lived like any other fleeting feeling of peacefulness in any job. What happened was, from getting what I looked for I lost the opportunity to have fun again in the outside world . That was when I started thinking again and this question came to mind;Do you think it is enough to just being paid well and lead a comfortable life at a young age?
If not what are you going to do about it ?How are you going to leave your comfort zone? Is it gonna worth it????
What is worth fighting for???
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