Well Done (14/98)

Yeahh..I am going to talk about my work again. Finally..finally..one is done...and I am so proud of myself because..although I took a long time to finish it but I was really putting a lot of effort into it. I had been criticized by many last time I did a task and I was completely down. But now, even if they try to put me down again, I know with all of my heart that I have done my best (Not that I didn't do my best the other time). 

The music to the soul when you are working is being able to do a task excellently regardless of how you feel about the task. I know sometime I am a bit picky about task and when I am asked to do things I have no heart to do, I tend to do it it very slowly...because that's what going to happen if you are doing what you don't enjoy doing. Right?

Lately, these few days..because there are so many things to do, and I know if I screw up nobody is going to help me up..I put an extra effort in making sure everything is being done well. I make no room for mistakes. Hopefully. 

Work can be stressful you know but if I can remember well, I think there wasn't much different when I was in school. I did feel stressed by exam, and also the mere thought of growing up and having to shoulder a responsibility was stressful enough. Now, if only I enjoyed every moment of it...

I guess feeling stressful is also part of a blessing because..you can only feel so if you are serious about it..No stress means..not caring THAT much..right??

I am blessed indeed to have..something I can worry about..and still somehow able to overcome it or pull through it..:)

Get It Done (9/98)

Today was one of those days where I was able to do my work in full gear. I had listed down tons of my work that need to get done and tried to prioritize those closer to deadline.

I had managed to finish off 99% of two of my many tasks. *smiling..yuhuuuuu...

Well..I don't get the mood to perform most of the time. But today was different because I was really in the mood of striking out all of my listed out tasks. 

I had a good time. You know, It is such a blessing to be able to perform in your top condition. Its good. really good...

What more can I say....I am blessed indeed.

Work, Not Working

Some people have this attitude of going out during working hours. They have so many reasons to go out. On Monday they have to go to the workshop because the car needs some tinkering. On Tuesday they need to go to the bank to withdraw money? On Wednesday they need to send their mother or father to somewhere. On Thursday they need to go to the post office to settle their bills. On Friday they need to go home early to avoid traffic jam since they have to go back to their hometown. That if they asked for permission. If they don't ask, they simply disappeared at 8.30am to have breakfast and again at 10.00 am to have mid morning tea break. At 12.00pm they already headed out for lunch or at 11.30am to fetch their children from school (this one is okay except that they return back to the office at 3.00pm). And before the time is up they are already queuing up to punch card. Hmmm. What say you?

Anyway, I am just writing out a very common scenario. It may not exist everywhere but what I am trying to bash is not particularly the people. It could have been the system that don't work.

We often say there are too many works for only a handful of people but really, sometime people are just not being trained or taught to do more. Emm, I think not being trained is not really the right reason. It's because of a LAZY culture. When new people come in they simply step in the shoes of those people with the kind of attitudes that don't spell effective.

Furthermore, those who manage to get in are those from relatives and friends of so an so and they are not even qualified to be trained to do a specific task. A waste of manpower.They don't have the basic knowledge and not even the attitude to learn. And you know it's easier to just shake your head and get on with your life instead of mothering people. They are not rebellious teenagers, they are mother and father of their children.

As the organization starts crumbling down as evidenced by decrease in quality of the core business services, nobody really see anything wrong. They only happen to comment on the flooding of manpower in some areas. Of course without quality. You would wonder where did all the good one gone? The brain drain.

I hope the good one had a better chance in life. I know they worked really hard in school. My sympathy only goes to those who did try to get a better job but sidelined by the mighty and powerful in preferences for the relatives and friends.

So please understand when the service is slow and the people are lazy. Some are inherently lazy and some just couldn't take the s*** that they start to play pretend and lay dormant for sanity sake.

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My Work, Not Working

It's not enough just being able to go to work punctually. The most important thing is to go to work and work diligently.

My problem with work is, often than not my superior order me to do things I really don't feel like doing.huh! It's a challenge.

As a result of that, as much as I prepare myself to arrive on time I can't really seems to be at ease doing anything.

I mean, I arrived punctually, never go out during working hours, even have lunch in the office and leave office on time, and yet I don't have any motivation to follow orders.

Part of me is rebelling and partly trying to be submissive but in the end I only do my part minimally.

However much I tried my best to finish my task, there is always a line I am not willing to cross which is to do more.

I know it's bad but I must admit, I can't love the task I am given. It is too. . . .hmmm. . If I can use a metaphor it's like asking me to chase the wind and capture it. Imagine a bomb being dropped to you every time the order comes around. *snap . Just like that. No head, no tail. . . Well. . .maybe that's an exaggeration but let me just say, I am not in. *shaking head.

So, because the environment isn't that conducive or fair enough for a person to survive and also I have problem trying to give my best, I think I am facing a big problem like wasting my energy and dying slowly with a lot of pent up emotions. You see, even plant dies if not planted on the right soil with enough sunshine and rain.

How can you say yes when you really mean to say no or say maybe when you really want to say never.

NO AND NEVER

I really have to go...somewhere over the rainbow.

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