When I saw you..standing tall with your hazel eyes, blonde tied hair, deep arrogant voice practically showing off your assets..I thought " damn..who was this man?"...and looked away. You asked my number from that counter lady..
When I saw you again..I didn't bother..and you shouted at the counter if I cared for a coffee break with you. I shrugged off, not listening..you called up and I thought.." what to lose, I am not dating anyway"..So we had cola..and you introduced me to your strange world.
When you saw my back, while walking down the street...you called up and said it made you missed me..and I thought.." You were a strange man"..I got to know you more...
When you mumbled "stupid words" while I put on that sunscreen on your face..I thought " you were cute"..and I saw that glitter of kindness in your eyes.
When you asked me to sit beside you, stretched our legs in front and stared at the open space, you questioned me "if business was not good and I didn't say a word, I saw your wounded legs.. and thought " You cared about me, when you were the one who had a hard life"
When I was standing while looking at you chatting away with others, and decided to just turn away and leave you with your business you called out and asked if I was okay, and let me came closer to you...I thought " I mattered to you"
When you said.."let us have a child together".. I thought.. "why do you think of me like that"..it never and could never happened, .
When I cried and cried because I couldn't understand what I was feeling towards you...you asked if I wanted to be your wife...and I just cried...and thought " friend???"
When you said..you were speeding at 200km/hr..and you couldn't just make a U-turn, I thought " so..you did think about saving your soul"..
When you asked if I weren't afraid of you, because you killed man..and I would be killed too if I keep staying by your side"... I said.. " I pray.."..and I thought you looked at me wondering if my faith was that strong enough to hold you.
When you were missing for months and called me up to ask later "if I knew you...because I seemed to be someone in your life"...I wondered what happened..and you said..you involved in a fight, blackened out went to the hospital diagnosed with "tumor" had surgery ...chemotherapy..and that now..many memories were fuzzy to you..I said .."I was nobody"..
When you asked me out after you "forgot" me..you looked at me..me a stranger to you..and said " You are so pretty..were you my girlfriend?".. I smiled , sensing the distance..while hiding how sad I was because you were no longer you.Strangely I was relieved that you were no longer be tortured by your past.
When I saw you again..twice..lounging in your chair..with long tied blonde hair, wearing a pair of glasses..busy looking at some figures in a book..stretching your leg,..I thought " You were living well..."...and I walked away...
2005 - 2007
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