The sea has a calming effect. There is something about it that makes you as how the water looks like; clean and transparent. Every time I go to the beach I simply lost in tranquility immersing myself fully with the wonderful panorama surrounding the sea. The clear water, the sounds of the roaring waves and the soft breeze blowing gently against my cheeks, I loved it all. I love it so much so I am able to open up and throw away all of my worries out there to be forever gone and buried beneath the sea.
When I am tired, confused, needed a breathing space, needed to cry, needed to smile, needed to share my feelings and needed to simply enjoy the magnificent view of God's wonderful creation I run to the sea.
I am not a good swimmer but I do love strolling along the seashore with bare feet. It is absolutely wonderful.At times like that, I would be reminded of my childhood of how spontaneous a child can be and how they can totally be happy and playful by simply being in a "playground" like a seashore. However, that youthfulness is nearly gone and adulthood teach us to forget much of the exuberance youth we once had. Worries and troubles gets in the way and perhaps before we know it, our youth has been fully sapped away.
As I was cooking for my brother this evening, I remembered much of this. I realized how lonely I feel these days and in that moment my thoughts turned to the sea. I remembered my grandmother as I always equate her with loneliness.I dug deeper into my soul and my heart and found NOTHING. I found nothing to stop me from feeling alone and lost.
I have no wish by the way, I only have faith that God will never forsake me and that I am going to pull through whatever circumstances I am in right now.
I can't lose hope. It's the only thing I got.
^_^
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