I was so *jaded* but now I am no longer bitter. I could not find the right words to express how I feel about *the reality in life* but..maybe it is enough to say that although I was so *jaded*...now I am sincerely a happy *jaded* woman. :) ( if that make sense to you) hehe.
I have fully accepted who I am to the world. I accept that I am just one person that can only do little things. I have accepted that although this world is not a perfect world, the aim of living is not to live in a perfect world but to live in an imperfect world with imperfect people and still not be ruined by it.
It felt so strangely wonderful that these days, I have been so calmly smiling about everything. Not that things has changed. It just that I have changed.The railing inside my head has slowly dissipated into thin air. :)
Well...I guess if you have been pushed too much in life you will soon arrive to a junction or a crossroad. You can choose the one that says "stay the way you are and just get angry with the whole world. Hide yourself, be selfish, get revenge and be totally dark" or you can choose the one that says " Be calm. The burden of the whole world is not on your shoulder. Just enjoy this life and smiles. It doesn't mean that you are weak or that you have surrendered. It simply means you have gained the strength to get away with a smile, feeling peaceful and everything despite all the harsh circumstances in life".
I guess i have found the new meaning of "strength". It is in being happy despite how difficult your circumstances are. It is in maintaining your calm disposition no matter how frustrated and angry you are with the world. It is in remaining true to your value despite being surrounded by those who loves to influence you otherwise.
It doesn't mean that you have not changed at all, it simply means you still believe in your ability to be kind, considerate, happy and thoughtful even when people are being unkind, inconsiderate and bad to you. It means you have become wiser to know when to listen, when to talk, when to forgive, when to be firm and when to be open.
I learned much that the success in this life is not about how good you are at things, but at how good you are at controlling the inner turmoils that haunts you night and day. It is about arriving to a point of view that don't spell "ruined" or "broken". It is also about being able to be the catalyst of happiness.
Yes. I love life and I want to live this life joyfully for the rest of my life while accepting the bad and the good one.
I want to live being perfectly happy and grateful for the opportunity that has been given to me to live this life to the fullest.
Amen to that.
I hope you are thinking the same way to.
Love.
XOXO
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