I am Proud Of Myself..

If you have worked hard on something whatever the outcome is, isn't it the only right thing for you to do is to be happy with yourself? Of course that thing is maybe something very easy for someone else but it is something very difficult for you given the circumstances that you are in and the fact that you don't have any guidance (from certain somebody) but to rely on your own capacity and resourcefulness.

I was both happy and sad today. I was happy because I did everything I can within my ability to come up with my presentation enough with all the evidences to support my cases. But I was disappointed with how a certain somebody put a blame on me of not "making things possible". I was so angry I nearly flipped the table. :) ( Could you believe that?). I realized I had a streak of anger that is totally scary when somebody toyed with my patience (Not enough to want to kill people though). I fought back this time simply by asking "Are you blaming me, then?" and I said "I am sorry I really didn't have the time to make sure everything is good". Fuh!!! Anger released...kekekekek

Right now, I feel sad actually T T. I feel so sad because I know I have given my all and still certain people wasn't satisfied and somehow still pushed me up against the wall. But I am not going to cry. :)

There is no reason to cry. It is okay. It means I am going to break another wall. This time it is the wall of "limit". I am going to break the wall simply because I am ANGRY. hehehehe. (My heart is pounding hard chinggus)

And this is my "Outstation diary for Day-2" this new year. :) It is indeed a very fruitful and productive year for me. For a starter, I actually had the courage to fight back a "little" this time and for someone as timid as me, fighting back is totally a rare case unless I am totally pissed off. Well that just described everyone else out there. Right? It means I am no different than any one of you out there.

So can we change the vibe to a happier tone now?.. :) Chinggus...I know I have done my best. So I am going to congratulate myself no matter what. 

You did well!! I did Well * tapping her shoulder!!  hihii

Love 

XOXO