I Might As Well List Down My Accomplishments..

This year;

1. I have learned to knit and managed to finish a vest for my dearest husband, a hat for my mom and a few babies thingy (just learning)

2. I have started to wear make up to go to the office. A new way to look better and feel better.

3. I changed my wardrobe. I packed a lot of unused clothing and rearranged my wardrobe.

4. I bought a stereo to listen to gospel music at the start of the day. (Bless me oh Lord in The Morning!)

5. I have finally overcome my fear of the "night" and have been able to sleep soundly even when I am all alone in the house.

6. I quit broadcasting about my life on social site. :) ( What a huge sigh of relief )

7. I have successfully weathered a few crisis.

8. I quit library in preference for book store only to find out later that, much of the book I want to read are in the library.

9. I have managed to bring my parents out of my hometown. Now this one is a big accomplishment.

10. I bought a table to enable me to work on my writing much better and a cushion to comfortably read book.

11. I managed to start my first investment and take hold of my other financial matters.

12. I have encountered a few experiences (auditing) that have expanded me as a person.

13. Career wise I have managed to settle at least two important cases.

14. My relationship with food is now much better. I have taken a liking to vegetarian lifestyle although I am not yet a vegetarian.

15. I have managed to reach my goal to read at least 45 new books. In fact I have read 55 books. Not bad. (Probably more)

Overall I think my life has been full of blessing. Thank God and Halleluyah!

To Expand Your World,,,

I was visiting my hubby hometown with my parents when I took notice of a new side of my parents individually. In a very short time I got to see a very different father and a mother whom I got to see usually in our small world aka home.

I was thinking it was probably because of the new environment I was taking them to that they suddenly became different. New environment must have done some amazing change of persona to the parents i thought I knew. 

In those short time of knowing more of my parents it dawned on me that if it was because of a new environment that I got to see a new person in each of them, than expanding your view by being in a different environment or world must be important to bring out the unknown side of you. Perhaps by expanding your world you will get to be a better person with so much more to offer this world.  With that observation, I am inclined to say, we have to see the world..more..We must not holed up in our tiny cubicle. Our world expand according to the vastness of the universe we set our eyes upon.

You see, the experience in the world that you have explored will help to teach you about a lot of things that you have never thought of. Things like how to be a useful person in a community. Things like how to function well as a member of a family and a society. This is "copying" skills which could never happen if you don't mix with people from various walks of life. You need to learn about yourself through them.

 A wise man said to get rid of a bad habit, you need to cultivate a new habit. By the same token, to get rid of a bad feelings towards a community and society, you just need to be with a community that truly treat each other well. Right?

Right there.

As this year is finally closing in, my final remark is that;

It's not important how you start your year but it's important how you end it.  Let us celebrate a year of good fortune and blessings that never ceased to come our way even when we have been bad all year long.

Merry Christmas (Belated)

&

Happy New Year 2013!!!

God Bless!! :)

Love

Niek

Serenity by Mario Alonso Puig

The ruler of a great kingdom, who was very old, wanted to make sure that, before abandoning this world, he imparted an important lesson to his son. During the kingdom's most difficult times, it was important to be firm and ensure that peace and harmony would ultimately reign in the country. But for some reason, the young Prince couldn't quite understand what his father was saying.

" Yes, Father, I understand that for you serenity is very important but I believe that cunning and power are more important."

One day, when the King was riding his steed he had a great idea.

"Perhaps what my son needs is not for me to repeat the same thing over and over again but to demonstrate it to him in some way" Carried away by this idea he ordered a meeting of the most important members of his court to the main hall of the palace.

"I want to organize a painting competition. The biggest and most important one ever to be held. The town criers must make it known throughout the world that there will be an extraordinary prize for the winner of the exhibition.

"Your majesty," asked one of the nobles, "What is the theme of the exhibition?"

"The theme is serenity, balance. I will only give you one order," said the King. "Under no circumstances should you reject any work of art, however strange it appears or horror should cause."

The nobles left without fully understanding the surprising order that the King had given them.

From all the corners of the known world came marvellous paintings. Some of them showed calm seas, others clear skies in which a flock of birds glided across creating a sensation of calm, peace and serenity.

The nobles were enthused by such beautiful paintings. 

"Without a doubt, his Majesty is going to find it very difficult to choose the winning painting among such magnificent works of art."

Suddenly, before the shocked public appeared a truly bizarre painting. Painted in dark tones and with little light, it reflected a rough sea in the middle of a storm in which huge waves were crashing violently against the dark cliff rocks. The sky was covered with enormous dark clouds.

The nobles looked at each other in disbelief and soon broke out in laughter and mockery. "Only an idiot would have entered a competition about serenity with a painting like this."

They were on the point of tossing it out of the room when one of the nobles interrupted them saying,

"We have an order from the King which we cannot disobey. He told us that we couldn't reject any painting, however strange it might be. Although we haven't understood the point of this order, it was given by our King and we can't ignore it."

"All right," said another of the nobles, "but put this painting over there in that corner, where it can hardly be seen."

The day came for his Majesty the King to decide on the winning entry. On arriving at the exhibition hall, his face lit up. But as he made his way through the exhibition his face became more and more morose.

"Your Majesty, do none of these paintings satisfy you?" asked one of the nobles.

"Yes, yes they are very beautiful, there's no doubt about that, but there's something lacking in all of them."

The King had got to the end of the exhibition without finding what he so wished to find when, suddenly he noticed a painting sticking out in a corner.

" What is that there which is hardly visible?"

"It's another painting, your Majesty."

"And why have you placed is so far apart from the others?"

"Your Majesty, it's a painting painted by a lunatic. We would have rejected it but following your orders about accepting all paintings that were sent to us, we decided to place it in a corner so as not to affect the beauty of the rest."

The King , who had a natural curiosity, went up to the strange painting which seemed so difficult to appreciate. Then he did something which none of the members of the court had done. He went nearer to it and looked at it in more detail. It was then that, all of a sudden, his face lit up and raising  his voice, declared, "This is , without a doubt, the winning entry!"

The nobles glanced at each other, perplexed, thinking that the King had gone mad. One of them, shyly, asked him, "Your Majesty, we've never disputed your commands but, what do you see in that painting to make it the winner?"

"You hadn't looked properly, come closer."

When the nobles got up close, the King showed them something among the rocks. It was a small nest where there was a newly- born bird. The mother was feeding it, totally detached from the storm taking place around her.

The King explained to them that this was just what he wished to show his son, the Prince.

"Serenity does not come from living in an ideal world as is reflected in the other paintings with their calm seas and clear skies. Serenity is the capacity to keep your attention on what is a priority for you, despite the difficult circumstances."

The Lessons I Learned..Some Of It...

I was about to write down on my diary aka Journal when I noticed that my husband had jotted down something on my diary. He read my diary and was sorry to do so but he said he hoped to learn something from my hidden thoughts. Ouchh..

Anyway..that made me scroll through every single details of my entry just to know what I have penned down in there. Hmm..I realized I did have a lot of mixed thoughts in there and some of it came as a surprise to myself because I really had totally forgotten thinking or writing about it.

It happened that on the 22nd May 2012 I wrote down something which to me..resonated then and resonates again now. Would you like to take a peek on my diary entry?? * wink.

Okay. I wrote something like this:

So..The lessons I have grown to like and practiced lately are these;

1. To be sincere (always) because it always get the message across. Don't be pretentious. Lesson from Moon Geun Young.
2. Be yourself. Stay in character because the character you have now is what bring you where you are. You really don't need to act out of character (trying to be someone you are not). Lesson from T.D Jakes.
3. To have the right aura. People can sense your aura be it good or bad. Everything Has vibration and if you gives off the right or good vibration the universe and the person right next to you will sense it and respond to it accordingly.Lesson from Masato Emoto.
4. What you are is what the people will be around you. You echoes your own self-image/perception. Lesson from The Dog and The Mirror.
5. To be true to your heart. Search and do what excites you. God made people to live fully and lively. Not just to become complacent like a dead stagnant river which without flowing will never have enough life to sustain it. Lesson from John Eldredge in his book Wild At Heart.
6. Character is fate. You can't hardly turned out to be different or expect people to change because character is what you are, a destiny. Lesson from Ethan Canin, as quoted from Heraclitus and written in The Palace Thief and Other Stories.
7. If you are stuck somewhere you won't be able to move on so learn to mend each step that has broken before moving any further up because if you don't do that it will be coming back to you again and again until you have learned the lesson. Lesson from Katherine Brazeltone in Pathway to Purpose For Women and Andrew Matthew from Follow Your Heart.
8. To release yourself from the "pact" you made a long time ago. Say if you have promised to God not to sin anymore and if you did to let God punish you severely. But then you realized you are just that weak human being who are hardly able to be perfect. Release yourself from the pact and start again as a child of God. You can't never runaway from sinning as long as you live. Lesson from Paulo Coelho in his book The Valkyries.
9. Take up faith when you are fearful. These two (faith & fear)  always run together side by side. Lesson from Samuel Rodriguz in Seven Pathway to Miracles.
10. Destiny is determined by choices we made. Like Peter and Judas both at some point betrayed Jesus. However Judas chose to hang himself whereas Peter chose to redeem himself by becoming the "rock" and taking care of the people Jesus left for him to love. Lesson from Max Lucado in Cast of Characters.
11. Your purpose in life is all in the roles you are playing now as an employee, a wife, a daughter, a friend and etc. It is the small things in each of these roles that make up for the big purpose you have in this life. So before you ask God to give you that one big purpose, play the one you already have because perhaps those are the place your lesson lies before the next big thing/role you need to carry in the future. Lesson from Katherine Brazeltone.
12. You are not able to understand or to see the whole picture so before you conclude whether things are bad or good, bear in mind that you don't know or have the idea what will be coming or happening next. Lesson from Andrew Matthew in his book Follow Your Heart.

And those are only some of the things I remembered to put in one sitting on that particular day which I think is very insightful and wonderful and of course made it clear to me that going to the library and just grab and read some random books are not pointless at all. 

I need to go back and say hi to the library.  Yess??

I hope it means something to you too. 

Happy Holiday!!

To Not Waste Time

The biggest spoiler of your holiday is none other than wasting time doing things that takes time but not necessarily satisfying. Surfing on the net to check on social site is probable an example of the biggest time waster of all time. Agree? huhu. Please don't get annoyed with that. It is just a matter of personal opinion because that is what I feel every time I spend my time surfing the net and linger a tad longer than necessary to check on my favourite site. 

However I only say so because I do have things that I really wanted to do today and I really don't have a long holiday. Some people commented that I am taking too long of a holiday but I really hope they keep it in my mind that although I take only 7 days holiday but I too make time to drop by the office in the afternoon (for the time being) to settle whatever I need to do. I know its not much and I really can't do better than that for now because letting me stay in the office by chaining me on the chair or something won't do me any good since what I really need now is a fresh new air from somewhere else minus the office thingy.

Excuse me. I don't hate my job. I probably dislike the unfair environment and the fact that it always left me feeling rather powerless, useless and brain-dead with nothing much going on but I am so very much sure that in spite all that I am rational and I don't like leaving a job undone.  I am not done talking about job just yet but today that's not really what I wanted to talk about.

I just wanted to share about my opinion on wasting time. Yes..wasting time is very subjective. If you have always been busy and always on time on everything probably wasting time and taking time much longer than usual or not caring about being on time isn't much of a waste. Right?

For example who cares if you wake up at 8.30am in the morning as long as you wake up feeling totally refreshed and ready to "slay the dragons" the moment you wake up or who cares if you take your shower at 10.00 am in the morning or still wearing your pajamas and off you do what you think is right for you at the moment aka writing up an article in your blog. Well that's what I did. And I see no reason to be sad about that. 

I am just a happy woman trying to ease her mind by doing what she does best which is ..(Writing)

Writing is Sharing and Sharing is Caring.

I am blessed Indeed. (Can't wait to enjoy the day)!!!

Take Time To Enjoy The Moments..

Because today I was on holiday, I took time to do almost everything. I enjoyed driving my car amidst the long queue of cars in a congested road. I took time window shopping. I took time to relax and to decide where is  the place that I really wanted to go the most. I took time to really do what matter most to me today.

I thought about it over and over again in my head about the place that I really wanted to go today and the funny thing was it really wasn't a big thing at all. All I really wanted was a cozy place to have a lunch where I could comfortably ordered my favourite food and ate it delightfully. 

I wasn't thinking about doing my hair, pedicure or manicure. I wasn't thinking about adding more clothes to my nearly full drawer. I wasn't thinking about buying another book to add to my collection of books. I wasn't thinking about doing facial treatment, perming my eyelashes or massaging my leg. All I wanted was to eat. :) .Even if I have millions to spend on whatever, I really was not in the mood to splurge on those said things. 

I think I know now what I wanted to do if today was my last day. All I wanted to do would be exactly what I did today. I will just go to a nice comfortable place to eat my last meal and I will be ready to die..anytime..

But..oh..no..I am not here to talk about dying. Of course not. I am too young to think about those kind of things. I know I am tired and probably a little sick but I really am not thinking about dying. I just wanted to share about my whereabouts today because to me it is something that I rarely experience nowadays. You know the feeling of total "freedom". The freedom to choose what to do simply because I don't have to get up and think about "work". 

It's good by the way to get away from your routine once in a while and be completely occupied by your own thoughts because only in silence will you see what you really want. Right?

Right There.

I am blessed Indeed.

Open up Your Heart and Let It Show You The Way

Today is my first day of year end holiday. I always need a year end holiday to gather my thoughts. It is the time for me to see clearly the path that I have taken this year, the goal that I have set and the new realization that will be the mark of a new beginning next year ahead.

This is also the time of the year where I would keep my thoughts to myself and let it overwhelm me for a little while until I come up with a resolution. It has been two years of a "hard thinking" from my part. Each time I decided to either press ahead forgetting and forgiving or make a short term plan to leave when time and opportunity come. However, this year things get a little harder than usual. 

I realize that just pressing ahead with unresolved things impending your way is not the best way at all. If I stay true to myself, no matter how I think about it, I can't just move on like I used to. Something really need to change. 

I really think that I have to open up my heart a little more and let it show me the right way to go from here onwards. For the sake of sanity, I really can't just go on optimistically believing that things will be fine if I stay "sincere" and "honest" with my way. 

The thing is I am one step away from the edge of a cliff. It's really really hard.

I am really looking forward to get some beautiful thoughts at the end of this year. I need some fuel to replenish my energy and I desperately need to get back on the right track. 

This is the time to be Happy..to feel blessed..and to run away from evil thoughts. 

The Best Time To Count Your Blessing is..

The best time to count your blessing is when you are laden with sorrow and when you are so burdened with many matters that you just wanted to quit life.

Sorrow blocks happiness from surfacing in your mind simply because it doesn't exist together. One is the opposite of the other.

But...

How can you be so sorry with your life that you fail to see the silver lining on the cloud.

You see even if you can't do anything right now and that the world doesn't change to suit you,

you have to live.

One more step. Just go on.

My Red Pumps

On Top View

On Side View

Wee... After searching for a long time, I finally found my red pumps? ( I don't know the real term..huhu) I found it all the way in Tawau. . . Hihi

How do you like it..?
 

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Eating experience

Big Apple at 1Borneo. A delicious experience. It reminds me of sweets chocolates moments. Yummy.

Nasi Ayam Penyet. One word "tantalizing". The new list on my eating rolls. Huhu!

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