I am your teacher

After weeks of following the episodes of I am your teacher, I am finally done with it. It was actually very exhausting given the fact that I had to watch a pair of people I liked one and hated the other.

As a brief introduction, I am your teacher was basically a story about a young girl Eun-Byeol who was the only daughter of a gangster. She was a little wild and needed some lessons. She has been home-tutored by many teachers but to no avail. She always managed to scare them off.

Finally one day, the father threatened to whack her after she chased out again another tutor. Her excuse was, none of them willing to slap her to make her listen to them because of fearing her father. The father could not put up with her argument and scolded her even more. Unfortunately, he accidently killed her most beloved pet (A tarantula).It angered her and made her run away to the street looking for no place in particular. Two teachers who seemed to be trying to get along with each other stumbled upon her and upon much persuasion by the female teacher (Ms.Soi), the male teacher (Mr.Jang) agreed to walk her home. However, she tricked him and they ended up going back to Mr.Jang's house.

The next day when Mr.Jang went to school he was apparently called up to the police station to fetch Eun-byeol who misbehaved and caused much stir. She joked with him saying she better sold off herself and asked if Mr.Jang was interested to be her first client. Mr.Jang was shocked and slapped her. She was taken aback but felt "good" that finally someone "a teacher" was willing enough to slap her and from there onwards determined to go back to school again and wanted to be taught by a teacher no less than Mr.Jang himself.

The father moved Mr.Jang and her daughter in the same house to make sure the daughter was properly tutored. However, this was a secret that soon caused them a lot of trouble and weaved many lies involving Mr.Jang, Eun-byeol, the father and the teacher Mr.Jang wanted to marry.

In the new school Eun-byeol was forced to stand on her own after being bullied by the bad kids in her classroom who bet that she would leave less than a week. Three girls in particular harassed her for being jealous that the man they admired named "moses" was attracted to her. To keep her away from him, they used many ways to bully her but she fought back and won over them. She befriended the aloof Musin and the scary Sagang along the way and graduated early after an incidence that forced her father to send her to study oversea to protect her from being hurt by her father's enemy.

The story then revolved around her new badly reputed classroom and the teacher she fell in love with.

The ending was as expected. Mr.Jang and Eun-byeol separated for awhile since Eun-byeol need to continue her study oversea. While she was away, Mr.Jang relationship with Ms.Soi went sour and they parted ways. Mr.Jang and Eun-byeil were soon reunited to rekindle their relationship after Eun-byeol returned from her study and Mr.Jang's former lover , Ms.Soi found love from the male nurse who were always there to comfort her and the two other second leads Musin became a private investigator and Sagang her best buddy became a teacher in their former school.

The story sounded lovely, so I am not sure if my disliking for the drama stemmed from the fact that the actor acted in a way that I could not accept or because the story was written in such a way that Mr.Jang must act all stupid. It did not help that the pair did not convince me one bit that they were attracted to each other. No, there was zero chemistry. :(

However, I must give credit to Park Min Young. She really was cute and able to bring out her character quite beautifully. To me, the only pull to the drama was the fact that she was acting the role of Eun-byeol. Without her, I would probably dropped the drama at second episode.

That's all I have to say.

Happy Wedding Anniversary!

I have not had much time to pen my thoughts for the couple of days. I was busy with the preparation for my second wedding reception at my home in kampong. It has been delayed for several times and thank God finally it has been held successfully on the 19th of March a day before my wedding anniversary.

I must say, I am happy everything went well. It was a gathering of a few close relatives at hometown. Truly, a reception or a wedding felt much more meaningful when you are celebrating it with those who are close to you and its not about the number of people who come to share the joy with you but how little they are and yet it brings out joyful feeling more than when there are the attendance of hundreds or even thousands of people.

A year has passed by in my marriage life and I really do not feel it has been that long. I still feel like a new wife, a girlfriend sometimes and a best friend to my husband most of the time. You really should marry someone you love to spend your time with.^_^

Of course there were times we ticked off each other's nerves but it never elevated to the level where we could not joked with how silly that thing we were annoyed about. I am thankful, we could still be how we we were and more so, getting better knowing and loving each other with each day that passes us by.

This is just a thankful note to God for giving me a year of a blissful marriage with a lovely man. I am sure countless are His good thoughts for me in years to come more than anything that I could ever comprehend and for that, I could never ask for more.

Thank You Lord. I am blessed indeed.

The ultimate effect of Honor by Gary Smalley

by Gary Smalley

There was a Polysenian island tradition that when a man wanted a bride, he had to give payment to her parents something that he believed to be of equal value to what she was worth. Most men would give a pig, chicken, parrot or some similar small animal. For the most beautiful of all women, a man might even be willing to give one of his prized cows.

One woman in the village who had just reached marriage-able age was considered to be a little more plain and ordinary than most. Yet every girl had a few suitors, and she was no exception. One of these young men offered her parents a rabbit, another a chicken, and another a goose. One suitor came along, however, and offered the girl's father ten of his finest cows. Everyone was stunned. Such a bride price was unheard of. All other young man walked away in disgust. No woman is worth that!

The new suitor was thought to be foolish and extravagant. But he knew what he was doing. knowing the value her suitor placed on her, this Polynesian plain Jane began to hold her head higher as she strolled through the villages. She, after all, was now the famous "ten-cow woman." She paid more attention to her speech, her dress, and her way of conducting herself. She became more confident and elegant. Her facial expressions became kind and gentle, her body movements graceful and elegant, her voice soft and caring. In short, she became what she believed her worth to be and developed into the most stunning, beautiful, and graceful woman on the entire string of islands.

Everyone marveled at the young woman's transformation, and all thought the lucky young man had received full value of his bride price. And indeed he had. The young woman responded to his honor by living up to his estimation of her. She rose to be worthy of the honor he bestowed upon her. He now felt like he was living with the queen.

**If you place a high enough value upon someone, that person will usually move to justify that value.

From anger to intimacy written by Gary Smalley & Ted Cunninghim

These are some of the important points I personally liked and would like to take account from this book.

1. The word you longed to hear - No matter what word you’ve longed to hear – I forgive you, I love you, I’m proud of you – there are some people who won’t or can’t say them. But your forgiveness tank is not based on the other person; it’s based on your relationship with God. People are not the one who can fill you up. That’s God job! Allow Him to be the source of your strength and hope and love and forgiveness. When you are replenished and overflowing, you will become the source of life and strength to others. In the process you’ll help them climb out of their pit as well.

2. Closed spirit – If your spouse has a closed spirit on you, try to work on the only person you can change: you.

3. Become a Great wordsmith – When you use the same words repeatedly with your spouse, sooner or later they will come off as insincere. Try to find fresh new words to convey your feelings.

4. Nine roadblocks to happiness, read (here) – you are the common denominator in your relationships.

5. People who angered you - Make a list of people who have offended you, hurt you or let you down. Seek reconciliation and forgiveness now.

6. Concentrate on your own spiritual journey - While a couple may start out following Jesus together, there may come a day when one spouse gives up faith and stop growing. There are three journeys here:

a. Your spiritual journey. You are 100% responsible to discover your gifts and be good steward of your walk with Christ. Your mate is 0% responsible for this journey.

b. Your mate spiritual journey. You are 0% responsible for this journey, but your mate is 100% responsible to discover his or her gifts and be good steward of his or her walk with Christ.

c. Your marital journey. You both are to honour, encourage and assist each other throughout a lifetime of commitment.

7. If you are addicted to something - Break the addiction by;-

a. Hiding nothing. Confess your sins.

b. Receiving forgiveness. Receive forgiveness, let go of the guilt and shame and see yourself as God now sees you.

c. Redefining yourself. Redefine yourself in light of God’s love, strength, love power and redemption.

d. Recruiting assistants. Have friends to encourage and rebuke you.

e. Practicing spiritual disciplines. Practice three spiritual disciplines ( consistent prayer time, regular quiet time, great relationships)

f. Writing letters and reading books

8. If your spouse is addicted to something – Recover from your spouse’s addiction or affair by;-

a. Taking time to mourn. Acknowledge the pain, surrounds yourself with friends and Christian counselors. Take time to heal. Don’t expect an immediate healing.

b. Creating boundaries. Guard your heart and body from any level of perversion.

c. Becoming a learner. Understand more about the deadly cycle of addiction.

d. Not taking the blame. Recognize that you are not the reason for your mate’s stumble, struggle or addiction.

e. Choosing to forgive. Even if your spouse is unrepentant, you must forgive.

f. Assisting your spouse’s recovery. Rather than trying to change your spouse or play moral police, pray for your spouse and challenge him or her to get the help and support he or she needs.

9. How to maintain marriages (examples from real life couples);-

a. Write notes. Write note to each other to communicate.

b. Remember your date night. Couples who enjoy regular date night often maintain deeper levels of communication and openness. Date night gives couples time to connect, discuss issues and enjoy each other.

c. Phone home while you are on the road

d. Talk pillow talk. Go to bed early before exhaustion sets in.

e. Feed the kids early

f. Don’t bring everything home

Nine roadblocks to happiness

by Ted Cunningham

1. Selfishness – You may have the mistake of thinking that cutting off a relationship in your life will change everything, but the deep truth is that wherever you go, that person is in your mind. You take all your past hurts and victories with you wherever you move. Serving is the antidote for selfishness. Give something expecting nothing in return.

2. Pride – Increase humility by recognizing that everything you have and everything you are comes from God. The antidote to pride is dependence on God. Humility also means being transparent. Humility lays the soul bare in dependence on God.

3. Insecurity – Find your security in Him.

4. Resentment – When seeds of resentment and bitterness are planted in our soul and given time to grow, their roots run deep. If we allow it to grow, before we know it, those roots will undermine our foundation and cloud our perspective. Not only resentment hurt you, but it will hurt those around you. The antidote for resentment is forgiveness. Forgiving – letting go allows you to pull out the deepest roots of anger and resentment. Forgiveness isn’t optional. You need to forgive just as much as the person who has hurt you needs to be forgiven.

5. Unresolved anger – when you resolve your anger and seek forgiveness, not only do you set the other person free, but you also get free.

6. Inability to recognize your weaknesses and mistakes – In the process of facing your own weakness, you become a ittle less judgemental and a little more loving towards others.

7. Misunderstanding forgiveness – We don’t have to forget in order to forgive. When you push the release buttons of forgiveness, however, you give up your right to bring up the issue again and make the other person feel bad about what he or she has done.

8. Fear of condoning the offense – You can offer forgiveness without condoning an offense.

9. The passage of time – no matter how much time has passed since an offense, you need to take steps to resolve it. (face to face conversation, write a letter, good heart to heart with God). Don’t allow time to stand in your way.

The nine roadbloacks to forgivenss do not hinder only one particular relationship in your life; they hinder all of your relationships. The belief you carry in your heart about one person is a belief you quietly carry in every relationship.

The Secrets Women Keep by Dr.Jill Hubbard

I just finish reading up The Secrets Women Keep written by Dr.Jill Hubbard and it really is a good book.I find the book very interesting because it touched a lot of angles.

However the only thing that really comes to mind after reading it is; that whatever it is I need to have many kinds of friend. I need to keep the old one to remind me of who I was but it is not necessary to stick to them only, because as we grow older they may not see the person we have become. We might have gone through a lot of changes over the years that not only our old friends do not realize but also fail to recognize.

To cater our present need for friends we need to make friends or meet new friends who could relate to our presence self. The new friends may have no idea who we were in the past and would make the necessary judgement based on what they see us at the present time which can be important if we are in the process of trying to become a better person or if we are stuck with old friends who only see who we were and not who we are now.

The book does touch other important things but I like the above idea the most because it jumped right out from the sentences she wrote. It taught me one thing which I never really think about deeply; the need to have friends to support us in our current situation. It taught me that although I need my old friends if they are no longer seeing the me at the present then I could always move on with other friends who can understand the me at the present.

In short, it is a good read. I personally think I must find time to read it again.

The Lucifer

I just finished watching the Lucifer. It took me a really long time to finish this one but I must say, I really hated the ending. I did not expect both of the main leads to die and when I think about the logic behind the death, I really could not find one. Yes, it was obvious they both finally forgiven each other but why must they died?

I had a mixed feeling about this drama. First of all, I like Jo Ji Hoon but in this drama, I could not really accept his acting. Acting wise he literally murdered his own character. It showed how bad he acted. But still I have a soft spot for JJH since I had seen a better side of him especially in the movie “The Naked Kitchen”.

The only actor I came to like a lot in this drama is Gang Osu father. In whatever way he was speaking, he really spoke like a father and I could feel his love for his sons. I was sad he also died in the end of the drama which made me think why did the screenwriter had to kill most of the leads just to end the stories? Couldn’t he or she end it in a happy note?

In my version of ending I would feel better if both struggled, threatened to kill each other, screamed at each other but in the end no one died and both lived happily ever after even though some of their past did haunt them once in a while. But that where you actually understand the word “forgiveness” isn’t? They must find forgiveness not by trying to understand everything and put all the blame to themselves but by seeking it from the power beyond us hoping that He will truly and eventually heal us from our iniquities.

And that’s my two cents about this drama. I enjoyed watching it though. ^_^

Missing you

Bunga citra lestari - Karena kucinta kau



I listen to this song a lot, especially when I am missing my hubby.

I love the song. It has a happy tune and it has a very meaningful lyrics. Its a promise actually. I Like it a lot.

I hope you guys enjoy this song too.

Have a blessed day mate! ^_^

My ideal day..

My ideal day would be a little bit like today. Kick start the day by waking up early without the need to worry about going to work. And then, proceeded by ; feeding the chickens who never failed to flock at the front yard at the exact hour every day.



After that, I would check the laundry, wash and hang them all and then, make and have a delicious breakfast. Then, I would sweep the floor, have my morning shower.. (should I take shower first before doing every thing else?...as I please..right?.. ) followed by changing to a comfortable shirt and pant.

At 9.30am I would be busying myself typing up like now whatever idea comes to mind. I would type and let the idea flows itself for an hour or two before heading off again to the kitchen to prepare lunch. After lunch, I would be busy sorting out or cleaning up the clutter in whatever part of the house which is still full with clutter.

By the way, after doing whatever it is necessary in the afternoon, I would proceed tending the plants @ garden surrounding the house. Since I have been thinking about having a vegetables + herbs garden, it would be the right time to tend them.

And when the evening comes, I would prepare a nice sumptuous dinner so that everyone would have a nice chatty meal time. This would be followed by a tv show and later a quiet time reading book and a bible to ponder throughout the night.

I think that would a wonderful day for me. How about you?

(This was written when I was on holiday last week)

Let's take a shower

Which part of the evening you liked the most?

As for me, I love the showering @ taking bath part. After a long day at work, a long shower in the evening make up for everything for the whole day. Especially if I bath with warm water washing from head to toe. I just wish I can be in the bathroom for a long long time. ^_^

Let's imagine if we can have a bathroom all to ourselves and we can have as long as we want in the bathroom. There is one bathroom + washroom I have in mind. The picture below might suit my imagination a little bit.



Its a simple bathroom with a little thing to keep me long in it. A jakuzi for a long bath, a stack of books or probably magazines I can flip through while dreaming away in it, a handful of skin products to pamper my skin, a range of aromatherapy candles to lit up and a view from a window to see what's happening on the outside.

It would be nice to have it like that. *dreaming away**.. hehe..

I wonder what's yours?? ^_^

Air Asia, Facebook & KFC

According to my husband our lives now consist of three things:-

a) Air Asia

b) Facebook

c) KFC

Air Asia

We have survived our long distance relationship because of Air Asia. In fact If I could meet Tony Fernandes the CEO of Air Asia I am going to kiss him and promise to marry him in my next left time because of his life-changing idea as in coming out with the air line with the lowest air fare in this region. I owe him my LIFE. ^_^

Facebook

I could not imagine how much more messed my life would have been had this technology created by the IT genius which is none other than Mark Zuckerberg came out sooner. I had flirted with a few other social networking sites but none could come close to Facebook. This application has messed many people life including mine but also in a way allow me and my hubby and the rest of my out of the reach family and friends to keep in touch. The facebook history is actually very Interesting and this facebook itself is very – very addictive but hey what can you expect from someone who was once a hacker..uuhh.. I really LIKE him. He made online gaming free. That’s about the only thing that actually really hooked me apart from of course blurting out whatever about my status when I feel like it. But hell no…from now on, there will be no more places to hide.

KFC

(its the recent KFC we visited)

My husband loves KFC and he loves talking about how the “colonel” came out with the idea and after years of struggle only succeeded at a later age. He said something like this; “the moral of the KFC story was , we would never know when is our actual time to be successful. We only need to work hard. Not many people reach the successful level at a young age. Some will make it when they are old but if we stop working hard now thinking that we are already old, we will miss our chances”. Yes, I heard him loud and clear. My hubby has repeated the story quiet often and I really think he likes KFC because it inspires him to work hard. That’s why when we meet up we always find time to go there. ^_^

You are..the one..the only one..

My tears run down my cheeks. After two weeks of spending time with my hubby, he has to go back again to his hometown. But I am going to treat it as if he is going away for outstation because I can’t seem to part from him.

I am not sure which is the difficult part, the part that he is not here now or the part that I still feel his presence here in this room.

Today, on the way to send him to the airport we almost argued like a million times but we did not allow our disagreement to possibly destroy our two weeks of wonderful memories. Furthermore, how could we bid good bye to each other with the last memory of a stupid argument, isn’t?

This two week has been a great moment for me. There were so many words spoken between us for the past two weeks and within that short time I saw so much of him that I learned to appreciate and felt thankful to God for letting me know and have him as a husband.

I might never really realize it before of what a wonderful person he is. He is kind to everyone. My parents love him and the kids in the house adore him. He simply knew how to treat everyone right. He made my father felt like a hero by allowing him to talk big about his past; he allowed my mother to feel superior by taking her side instead of me in an argument; and he let the kids felt special by teaching them patiently how to do math and how to spell correctly.

Back in kampong while visiting my parents, I leaned closer to my mother after watching him for a while tutoring the kids. I whispered to her “My husband is very nice isn’t he?” I was very much amazed by him and could not help but sharing my feeling with my mom. I found it very appealing because I lack patience with kids and the way he showed so much of interest in helping them with their studies really melt my heart.

My mom responded back with a smile “yes, you have chosen well”,

I think I did. It did remind me of my grandfather prophecy when I as a child stole@ took from him the most beautiful “kampil”. Instead of getting angry, he told my mother that when I come to a marrying age I would definitely pick a wonderful man as a husband. I never take his word seriously but now I think he was right regardless of how he came to that conclusion.

I really did have chosen the best man in my life.

Because it is true he is the only man I can lean on, who tried the hardest to understand me, who talked to me like I am his equal and the only man who have seen me in my WORST time. That, makes him the only man who deserves me in my BEST time.

If now is not my best time, I promise I will be for him in my BEST, EXCELLENT, DISTINGUISHED times.

I have thought so low of myself, so low that I never thought I deserved anything good without working really-really hard for it, and then this man came to my life. He became my husband not because I deserved him but because God bestowed him to me. It makes me think that God must have loved me so much to bless me with a wonderful man like him to cherish me for the rest of my life.

In Proverb 19:14 it was written that “a prudent wife is from the LORD” but I would also say, it goes the same way with a husband. A good husband comes from the LORD.

And for that I am thankful forever to God because He loves me this much.

I am indeed very much blessed.