1/10 satisfaction

I have been thinking about it of how if I have all of myself for me and not for the job or anyone else?. ^_^ When I am sitting down alone, just waiting for a call or waiting for a job to be tackled I am just damn bored. I wish I can plan the things I wanted to do in a given day. That might sounds silly because honestly I like what I do. It just that I am not all excited every day and the things that I do now could only give 1/10 satisfaction since I have 9 other things in mind.

If I can do what my heart desire the list of things that I wish I can do are;-

1. Learning how to sew and make it a big time hobby, sewing the kind of dresses that I like. I am so dressaholic and I am so tempted to say, I bet I can dress you to kill because I have an eye of an eagle (I bet this is not an idiom..its okay. I invented it for fun) when it comes to perfecting a dress for a girl. But that’s the Ms. Overconfident in me saying.. but since I am writing this to please myself, I see no harm in talking big to boost my own confidence. Heeeh.. ^_^

2. Learning how to makeup and make it professional enough to do others. Yes, a friend said, since you are *pretty* people will believe you to makeup for them..*hmmm…*…errrr…*cough* *cough*. I am sorry, I was thinking she was honest and maybe..I could try. Am I pretty? Well..my husband is way better looking than me.. Tee hee heee

3. Stay in a safe, comfortable place and write all I can enough to publish the kind of book that I wish to share with people. You know I am kind of scared living in a crowded area. I would prefer a house at the top of a hill. *dreamy eyes**.. ^_^ And the kind of book I would write of course since I am so into motivational kind of book I would go to that kind of area. A self - help book would be my choice. If I couldn’t put much into writing a book, a collection of poetry would be more than enough. But..well..since it’s a dream I can still dream to have thousand and thousand of book published under my ghostname : Gunsoyod. (is that a nice namee..err..I won't use that..seriously) Heeee…*blushing..Just enjoying the moment of dreaming.

4. Build my own library (only filled with the kind of books that I like and would like to recommend to others) and let people come in to have their own desire to read satiated. I would even prepare a special room for children so I can read books/fairytales to them myself + audio visual of fairytales related to the books. Wooohooo..I really love that. I really think some people never explore the heart of a child and how they can actually be moulded to a genius if only you have time to do so.

5. To build and to have my own small scale farming with chickens and ducks and lots and lots of vegetable plantation not only to sustain my living but because I just love farming. Why chickens and ducks? Because I think female ducks and chickens are the most shapely animals in the planet and male chickens are the most macho looking + arrogant kind of animals that never failed to make me chuckle. They are just amazing. Imagine when the little chicks follow the hens around..ADORABLE..I would just stare at them for hours. And then just imagine when two cocks wanted to win over a hen, they would fight..and awwww..*fighty! The best male win.. SORRY, I got carried away.

6. To learn how to bake cakes especially so I can eat cakes to my heart content. Seriously! ^_^ I can’t get enough of beautiful cakes. Luckily I am genetically engineered to be slim no matter what I eat. Thanks to my parents. ^_^

7. To have a small garden of flowers and herbs so butterfly and little birds can always come by and visit me anytime. You know I love butterflies and birds but the thought of putting birds in a cage makes me feel so miserable. How am I supposed to hear them chirping cheerfully if they are to be put in a cage. Right?

8. To rear a cat (tri-color female cat) and a dog (white female Maltese). Yeah.. its weird but tri-color cat has a special place in my heart since my last cat was a tri-colour and she has been a great companion to me. About a white maltese? It’s because its fluffy and its sooooo cute with white fur. ^_^..hehehe.

9. To have children and to take care of them all by myself not leaving them to mom or a nursery or whoever. Just me. I want to instill my own *programming in their head and even have in mind to teach them myself all the subjects called maths, science..bla bla..I am good. HEh… ^_^. Is that possible? I mean, out of all those things..this is what I want the most.. CAN I at least Have one dream to come true???

Enough of my dreamland. I got to finish my work.

It is absolutely amazing to have dreams. A blessing indeed.