"the touch"..

Yesterday was almost a perfect day if not a perfect day. As I lay side by side with my hubby enjoying our own kind of book, I wondered if I ever going to realize in my life time with him that our interest will be similar at all.

Then, we went to the library like I had never imagined before and the one who actually took the longest time to look for books was him; the reason why I sulked because we missed the cinema shows at 7.50pm. ^_^

When we went home, he ignored the bread and juice I offered to him in preference for his book and while I was carried away with my online gaming, he was busy reading the book from cover to cover. ^_^

I finally shut down my net-book and moved to his side flipping through a magazine. It’s about a hundred idea to decorate a home and it really fascinated me. Anything to do with interior design is amazing. He put the same amount of interest in the magazine and at that moment if not before something clicked. I for a long time realized…”we do have a lot of things in common ”.. ^_^

Two things happened then. One was a realization that I can actually have a lot of things pertaining to designs in my mind, talked to him about it with so much of enthusiasm and he could (possibly) make it happen. The second thing was, after all the years of soul searching what was my real interest when it comes to something creative and artistic, now I think I have finally found it.

I used to think and was very proud of my parents whom to me were endowed with many creative skills that I always wish I possessed too. My father was to me a master in craftsmanship who built and modified almost anything with his hand and my mom made beautiful craft in almost anything she touched. But me?? ^_^

Discovering your interest is indeed interesting. At least from there onwards you could propel on towards perfection. It feels like knowing which style you look best and so by knowing it, you harnessed the way you carry yourself with the style while all the while improving the style you have picked. In no time, you become stylish more than ever.

That’s how it feels like when you found something that allow you to harness the other side of you which is yet to be perfected. It feels wonderful. It feels like someone just gave you back a diamond that you have lost in the midst of the sea.
I hope this is it. The things that I can say “I will touch it, and it will turn into gold”; a perfect touch. Midas touch.

I am blessed indeed.

It Has To Be You

It Has To Be You - Yesung

Last night, my husband said something that still linger in my head up until now. He said even if he is a lot better looking than now, should he meet me he would still marry me. ^_^ That was his respond after I joked to him saying, he was very good looking that women would swoon over him and he would never even looked at me twice have he been destined to become a famous person or something close to that. hahaha.. Just feeling a little insecure, I guess ;p

This song, I want to dedicate to him.This is a song with a great melody. I have been re-playing this song for quite a number of times. It gets me into the feeling of wanting to be with someone so badly, it has to be that person no matter what. Something like a feeling you would feel when you really-really want to be with someone. You could have put any lyrics to it (my guess) and you would still be awed by it when you listen to it.

But of course, you can have your own opinion after listening to it. OK?

Enjoy ! ^_^

I am blessed indeed.

Pasta

I told you before I like Moon Geun Young as an actress but today I am going to add another actress on the list. It would be Gong Hyo Jin. After watching her acting in PASTA I am more than convinced she is someone to look out for. She was awesome in Pasta. I have not checked her other dramas yet but I have googled her profile in the wilkipedia and it seems she is one of a kind.

I know I put in my blog as currently watching The Lucifer which I really am doing except that I am watching it one episode at a time. I liked the story a lot so I wanted to invest every minute of it per episode. However when I came across “Pasta”, I found myself marathoning the whole episodes that I actually finished the drama within three days?? That was quite fast.

Everything about the whole cast was good but the pulling factor to me was the lead actors. The Chef played by Lee Sun Gyun and the makne chef played by Gong Hyo Jin was beyond “good”. They were oozing superb chemistry and that was why I could not wait for another day to watch the progression of their seemingly unlikely coupling.

It was good to know they won the award for best couple because they certainly deserved it. The story however was to me a so so but nevertheless did make me laugh and cry especially for Seo Yoo Kyong (I had a hard time remembering her name up to 5th episodes). I could connect with her simple-minded but yet determined character.

As the chef said to her, he loved her because she made him a better cook/chef as well as a person and also because she was so simple minded nothing upset her for a long time. You could always get mad at her and she took it without lashing back at you, never giving excuses or making complaints. The next thing you know she was out there again determined to achieve her own goal. I like her, the goldfish as the chef called her who had a memory not more than 2 seconds. I wonder if it’s true.???

~ sharing some of their beautiful moments ~ ^_^

The Rite

The Trailer of The Rite




I love Anthony Hopkins. I thought he is one of the brilliant actors out there. He really scared the hell out me in The Hannibal. When the trailer of The Rite came out I was more than thrilled to watch the movie simply because Anthony Hopkins was acting in it. I could not wait for the show.

Finally two days ago I had the chance to watch it with my dearest husband. I was out with huge expectation and put a lot of hope in the movie. But, sadly I must say I was a bit disappointed. Not that Anthony Hopkins who was playing Father Lucas was lacking in his acting, in fact I liked him a little bit here and there but I found myself excruciatingly pained by the actor who acted as Mr.Micheal Kovak.

This was the reason why I took a lot of time to muster my courage and write a little bit of my own opinion + review of that movie. Other than the fact that it was a little bit too long or dragging, the actor who played Micheal Kovak could not act as a “believer”. It seemed to me although how much he tried to act as if right then he turned into a believer and not an atheist anymore, it didn’t convince me and you know that was the MOST IMPORTANT thing in the story.

If at the end of the movie you were left gaping not sure what was it all about, the movie failed you. Luckily it was based on true events and the real Micheal Kovak is now a real exorcist.

There were also a few flaws here and there and honestly I really did not enjoy it that much. For once I was hoping I could get back my time spent inside the cinema. It could have been better to wait for the movie available in the net and just downloaded it from there because you know I really don’t think it deserved my time in the cinema. The content was good but the narration and the plot could have been better. No offense to those who loved it.

However, looking at it in a brighter light, I wanted to quote Father Lucas. He said “Choosing not to believe in the devil won't protect you from him”. So then, the real lesson here was; devil exists whether or not you believed in it.

The Lazy Person's Guide to Happiness

by: Ernie J. Zelinski

Purpose enough for satisfaction

Work enough for sustenance

Sanity enough to know when to play and rest

Wealth enough for basic needs

Affection enough to like many and love a few

Self-respect enough to love yourself

Charity enough to give to others in need

Courage enough to face difficulties

Creativity enough to solve problems

Humor enough to laugh at will

Hope enough to expect an interesting tomorrow

Health enough to enjoy life for all it's worth

Gratitude enough to appreciate what you have

when you start thinking about retirement...

by Ernie J. Zelinski

To best prepare for your retirement (any time) :-

1. Establish a good work/life balance many years before you retire and zealously maintain it.

2. If you work at a regular job, refrain from working on weekends.

3. Do as much as you can to maintain optimum health while you are working.

4. Be open to learning new things at work and in your personal life.

5. Read Barbara Sher's It's Only Too Late If You Don't Start Now: How to Create Your Second Life at Any Age.

6. Have a major life purpose other than your work.

7. Develop close friendship outside your workplace.

8. Maintain that is, don't neglect your true friendships so that they are still thriving when you retire.

9. Learn how to handle freedom-one good way is to become self-employed for at least a year or two before retirement.

10. Accept that money may buy you style and comfort, but it won't buy you happiness.

11. Spend a lot of time alone while learning how to enjoy solitude.

12. Indulge in regular strenuous excercise so that you will be physically fit and able to enjoy retirement activities.

13. Take all your paid vacation time so that you learn how to be more leisurely.

14. Travel a lot - people who don't get to enjoy travel before retirement seldom develop a liking for it after retirement.

15. Don't tie your identity to your job.

16. Find many ways to connect with the world.

17. Regularly take a day off work and ensure that you loaf it all away to experience what it's like to be a member of the leisure class.

18. Take a preretirement course that deals with the personal issues as well as the financial issues.

19. Above all, don't put off being happy until you retire:the ability to be happy before you retire - regardless of your financial circumstances - is the key to having a happy retirement.

When I think of you

Chris deburgh - When I think of you

The first time I bought a CD with love songs in it, this was the song that totally won me over.

It's catchy and upbeat. I love the melodies and the lyrics. It really feels like telling your "crush", this is how my heart beating and what I think when I see and think of you. I feel it that way. My heart is beating and wouldn't know what to say and every time I look at him, my heart beats non-stop, it is like an emotional rush with the need to convey that kind of message.

With that note, enjoy the song.

^_^

Take time off

To gain back a better perspective or yourself take time off and do these things:-

1. Mingle with like-minded people

2. Learn to pause and appreciate things around you

3. Disassociate yourself from people with bad influences

4. Read self-help books to help you find your own individuality

5. Spend time alone to get a better idea of who you really are

6. Find out your interest and do it.

When I graduated I take 8 months holidaying. I was not in a rush to find a job because I was mentally , emotionally and physically exhausted. I remember that time; I could not even clench my fist tightly. I basically run out of energy and I have spent my last strength to finish my schooling years up to the end with much effort. To be honest, I found my university years apart from the life outside of studies were quite demanding. In fact, I had contemplated to quit at my third and fourth year with less and less enthusiasm towards the end of my semester. I just wanted to finish it off. I was not proud of feeling that way because I did choose my course. I just thought that I was not playing the game the way I want to. I lost interest and that was the reason my strength and energy drained in alarming rate.

So it was a nice break to be finally home and enjoy my life once again. I figured, it was the right time for me to consider my career path regardless of what major I took at the university. I also needed sometime to organize my thoughts after years of dedicating myself to studying and being away from family.

It was time to lay back and recuperates. But I really liked my time off. I discovered a lot of things about myself that I have long forgotten. Thankfully I met a like-minded friend who reminded me of what were things that once have been a part of me. He tapped that curiosity in me and he let me back to get hold of my fun side. He let me saw the other side of the world that I have passed and he let me enjoyed the beauty of things that I too have passed. I was too invested in my emotional turmoil that I was not experiencing the simple pleasure the mother earth readily offered.

I realized again my love of books, my fascination with arts and the joy of participating rather than being the spectators. I realized that I was not weird and the things that I enjoyed were shared by other like-minded people. It was a relief to know that I really do not need to become someone else because being me was better. I found me in having a like-minded friend. I could not be happier to let go of me who has been trying to create a different individual. I really meant to say that because the first thing I noticed when I looked myself in front of the mirror then was a reflection of a person I could not associate myself with.

It was good to be back and be able to pick up all the pieces of my shredded self. By then I was determined to get back on my own two feet and become more me. All of this realization only came up once I disassociated myself from other people in a sense that I do not want to project a person based on their idea. You know, you tend to lose yourself when you try to fit in with a group of friends or try to please your loved ones when it is absolutely detrimental to your being.

The first thing I do to reconnect with my old self and to gain better insight of my individuality was by reading again books that helped me finding the route. I began to go back to the library and I read books non-stop especially self-help books. It’s only sad I never thought of reading non-academic books way back in university. If I did so, perhaps I would be able to recharge myself ever y now and then. It really helps to read books.

I started to sketch here and there just to remind me that I once admired arts that I liked to create it with my own hands.

I looked at the contents of my wardrobe and packed everything that I thought do not describe me.

I send letters to friend just to say hi and wish them happiness.

I went out, get scared in the process of trying new things and laughed out loud at the silliest mistakes.

I took driving class and this time passed the test.

I found back time to patch things up with all the members in my family and I took time to care for my ailing grandmother.

Needless to say, taking time off is the best thing that ever happened to me. It allowed me to gain a better perspective of myself and the goal I would like to pursue. It also helped me to find and to love myself back.

If you are tired, confused, not sure of who you are anymore, take time off.

Just The Way You Are

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are




I dedicate this song to me and to all the beautiful women out there. I feel warm and fuzzy every time I listen to this song. I heard Bruno Mars won an award for this song. Good for Him. He deserved it. This song does make me feel beautiful every time I listen to it. In fact I listened to it a lot when I needed some assurance of my being. ^_^

You know when you get older and all your youth and strength slowly sapped away, the thought of becoming less beautiful and less attractive does disturb you. When your man no longer say you are pretty or even compared your look before and after you get married, it is awful. A song like this is sure like a breath of fresh air.

Have a blessed day! ^_^

What is Success by Ralp Waldo Emerson

By: Ralph Waldo Emerson

To laugh often and love much;

To win the respect of intelligent persons and the affection of children;

To earn the approval of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;

To appreciate beauty;

To find the best in others;

To give of one's self without the slightest thought of return;

To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a rescued soul, a garden patch or a redeemed social conditions;

To have played and laughed with enthusiasm and sung with exaltation;

To know that even one life has breathed easier because you have lived;

This is to have succeeded.

I learned much...

I learned a few things through blogging aka writing which are priceless:-

1. I learned to express myself.

2. I learned to open up to others

3. I learned to be creative. There is no end to it; if your job doesn’t require you to get creative, use it somewhere else. Let us not waste God given creativity.

4. I learned to find ways to be more positive. If I just think about things and not writing it down, sometimes it is hard to get a more balanced and positive view over some matters.

5. I learned more about myself. It’s like peeling myself layer by layer and it’s scary because I don’t like what I see. I must keep improving myself.

6. I learned that I can actually write a lot when I want to. When I care about what I post and when I should post, my mind just start looking for things to write.

7. I learned that I can either put things negatively or positively in writing.

8. I learned to write.

9. I learned that I like a lot of things and find it out through blogwalking. News bored me but fellow bloggers you ignites the power within me. Thank you.

10. And , I learned that life can be beautiful in whatever circumstances it is; you just need to write your feeling in a positive way or even when you write it down in a negative way, you can ponder, reflect and make something good out of it.

I am blessed indeed.

Happy Valentine's Day

Daniel Bedingfield ~ If You're Not The One



I fell in love with this song when I started dating my now husband. I was head over heels for him and this song might say it all.

Happy Valentine's day Hubby!

My wish for us to be together in the song then was sure a sign for me of finally meeting my Mr.Right.

Love you! ^_^

My fantasy date

Since Valentine is coming, I have been so into the theme of love and dating and just a second ago a thought crossed my mind. It was crazy. I was thinking of how if I can have a date with someone that I really-really like at the moment as in “A date in the fantasy world”. Wow..Again it made me blush *** for no reason at all. Just the thought of it feels like ** outrageous.. Tee hee heee.

Okay , so let me spill the bean of who would it be. My dream date for now is yay!!!!..Mickey Yuchun…wahahahahahah.. Oh no..now you know. Hehe.. Never mind. It is just a fantasy.

Oh.. I really like his eyes and his smile melt me..arrrghh…*faint.

If I have a date with him how I would like it to be. Now I am imagining the scene from SKKS . SKKS is a drama Yuchun acted as a lead actor. The particular scene I am referring to is in episode 16. I really like the scene where he was eyeing Yoon Hee in the library. I want to have a date like that….hahahaha.. I want to go to the library with him and let him eye me all day long and then.. I want him to give me all the mushy-mushy wishes placed in pages of books he carefully hidden for me to look for like a treasure hunt… ^_^

And then, when we are both done smiling and eyeing each other in the library, I want to go out with him to the market. I have been so hooked to the dramas lately which portrayed market as the ideal place to date because it is filled with many people from all walks of life living a normal uninhibited kind of life. So that is why, I would like to try that. I want to know how would it be like holding hands while listening to people bargaining prices of stuff and then perhaps by chance get a naughty remark from a stall lady of how cute we are or…ehem…”what a nice looking newlywed we are”….wakakakakakaka.. OMG..thats too much for a fantasy.. hehehehehe

Then, Like Maeri In MSOAN, I would buy him a pair of socks. I would tell him like Maeri did that he can use it at night before he goes to sleep so he would not“ get bitten by bug/mosquito”…ngehhhh… ^_^ Well.. that’s not what Maeri said.. the last part was my own version of advise to suit my own mood.

After giving him his pair of socks we would walk home exhausted from our day trip to the library and to the crowded market place. Unfortunately that day would be raining so we have no choice but to share an umbrella making us so close with each other. (imagine the tension??...^___^) and just when I am about to go in the house he is already feeling so blue of letting me go that…he grabs me…. and said…”Kumawo”… and gives his zillion watts of smile….(arr..you are not thinking naughty thought right??) :P

Arrhh….die… perfect ending

I swear I won’t sleep the whole night after that and will have to stay up the whole night rewatching episode 16 and 17 of SKKS. There goes my fantasy date!..

How about that???... ^_________________^ * wink

Listen

I wanted to go out again today so I put on my favourite light pink top, braided my hair and added on a cute shiny pink hair clip. It looked nice. *Blushing* I even went as far as putting on a light green eye shadows and a light pink lipstick on. I rarely put on makeup and on the occasion I did so it was because my hubby was around and I did not want him to feel unhappy with my nude appearance. ^_^. I did make an effort a few times to look better every now and then but I failed to keep up with the momentum. I hated the fact that whatever it is, at the end of the day I still need to use my glasses on which always managed to hide my beautiful pair of deep set eyes and my deep gleaming dark eyes. Teee hee heee (what a description). Just Kidding! But Yes.., I am upset. Because with glasses on I really looked like a nerd (which somehow I am kind of..errr..???) The thing is I feel better looking like a sweet girl that I am :p)

So Sadly, I still have to use my glasses on (because my work don’t allow me to wear lens, and I can’t afford lasix treatment) and play along looking like a tough(scared) young lady. ^_^

Since I am so attuned to this makeup topic, just forget a little while about the going of this morning and let me just elaborate more on my longing for “perfect self-image”. When I talk about self-image and confidence, I have one particular lady clearly etched in my mind and she is none other than “Rebecca”, the young lady who was one of the apprentices in Donald Trump Show. She is in every angle the kind of woman that I wish to emulate; bright, beautiful, matured, strong with amazing personality. Just looking at how she carried herself in the show was enough to make me idolize her personality. I want to be her just like her.

Right now, I am caught between trying to show the professional side of me who needs to look tough, smart and crazy and the person inside me who is still confuse because she feels she can’t be tough in certain situation. But forget about that. Just say, because my husband loves me for being sweet. I look sweet?? Too cute he said that sometimes it would be difficult for people to take me seriously. So I can’t decide how to portray myself; that’s the problem. The problem is what am I? How should I carry myself the right way and; don’t even get me started on my physical appearance. In particular, I am not sure if I should say I love it or hate it. I just don’t like my skin. So there you go; I would never be satisfied with anything, am I? I think I have a conflict of personality here; don’t know how to become more me. Right? Yes, I need to learn more. I should. True??

Anyway, about this morning; when I went to check on the laundry because I was thinking of doing my laundry I noticed my sister in law had not hang her washing so I helped her up and did mine the second. Just then, the fine weather turned bad. It started to get cloudy and I felt bad leaving home for afraid of rain coming down soon.

I then ended up watching the 11th episode of “Lucifer” while soaking my feet on lukewarm water. The best thing was, finally after neglecting my feet for months, I had reasons to do pedicure and I was so happy with that. I really do hate unmanaged nails. It looks ugly no matter what kind of shoes/sandals you put on. So having the time to do pedicure is terrific. ^_^ *happy!

While still in happy bubble having finished painting my nail with light peach color, I went to the kitchen for a quick afternoon snack. Right then, my sister – in – law came home. She noticed her washing hanging on the hanging clothes rail and was pleased that I helped a little. .(the evidence that a little kindness means a lot to some). .that she offered me to eat the “kueh” she bought. We sat down and had a talk. I let her talk because I just read in “The Magic of Thinking Big” that letting other people talk is more important than talking about yourself. It proved the author of the book was right. I just let her speak and try my best to understand her more. I knew she was having a lot of problems so I was actually glad to let her talk about it.

In fact I chose to listen more to people talk nowadays because I can always choose to write down my own qualms if I need to talk about it. I still have my fill isn’t?

In short,I did have a great day. I did something to make me and other people better.

I feel, I am getting better each day and for that, I must thank the Lord for the opportunity He has given to me to make a difference at each of my waking moment.

I am blessed indeed.

My first love

I have a lot of painful *ouch memories with my first love. But as hurting as it may sounds, right now I find it rather amusing. So today just to celebrate the month of love, I want to share a song that I really liked and akin to how I felt at the course of my first painful love.

The lyrics say it all.

I feel good?

Just this morning I was thinking of how to spend my week-end beautifully, so I dressed up,tied up my waist length hair with a big red flower hair band which instantly lifted my spirit up... * smiling* and headed to the grocery store. I needed to buy a few things at the store bearing in mind to stay within budget so I checked the price ever so adamantly before choosing an item and buying it. Satisfied with the result, I then walked out feeling proud of not overspending.^_^..too soon..

But then, I was still not quite ready to go home because the weather was so good it felt like wasting God blessings of a beautiful day if I went home straight away. And then, I saw that store. Actually I was not supposed to check that store or even glanced at it but I could not help it.

Yes it’s the clothing store and I was so damned to not being able to resist the urge to go in while telling myself “I just go and look, try a few then go home”. Well, it never quite worked that way. What can I say?!!!!True, you should not build a clothing store too near a grocery store..it's a crime against women.:P

There you go the cardigan that made me break the rule of the day. Owh..It looks so delicious to my taste I couldn’t help but staring at it and calculating forever in my head of how am I going to put in my budget without sacrificing others and not starving. Geez.. my logic and calculative mind was totally override by my fetish for clothes. Do I??? Well, it actually happened a lot when I wanted to feel good about myself.

The light grey cardigan totally won me over and I purchased it with “guilty” feeling, I must admit but nonetheless happier than ever that I made a very good investment for a nice self-image..(just a way to console my guilty feeling).

I then walked back home and straight away tried it out with my spaghetti strapped white dress I bought years ago. I repeat yearssss ago. Hmm. I am quite conservative so when it comes to wearing spaghetti dresses or shirt, I can only wear it in front of the mirror. Pity me.

So pleased with how I looked like , I paraded, turned, modeled for quite a few minutes?..(don’t count)..and sheepishly thought ( I so look gorgeous ^_^)…what?? Hahahahahaha..

Well.. a girl must have a way to feel beautiful, isn't?

I am done for the day.

So, when am I going to use it???...ahhh...valentine day.. yippieee!!! ^_^

But hey, what you guys do to feel better???? Just wonderin.. ^_^

Your life is not in balance and you are probably in the wrong job by Ernie J. Zelinski

This is an excerpt from a book entitled "The Joy of Not Working" I am currently reading. It made me smile because It sounds ....familiar? What do you think?

Here are some signals that your life is not in balance and you are probably in the wrong job:

1. You take more than your share of mental-health days due to headaches, tension, and other stress-related complaints.

2. You dread going to work practically every morning.

3. You don't like your present job because you can't express your creative side.

4. Your main interest in staying in your present job is to cope for another sixteen years until you can collect a good pension

5. You spend the first hour of work reading the boring sections of yesterday's newspaper.

6. You are married to your job; your life is all work and no play.

7. You can't remember when you last got excited about your job.

8. Your job is undermining your health with problems of insomnia, excessive stress, and no time to relax.

9. You daydream away over half of the workday and are just going through the motions the other half.

10. You keep trying, but to no avail, to convince yourself and others that your work is stimulating.

11. You have trouble concentrating and can't generate any new ideas for your projects and problems.

12. When you think about your workplace, you get depressed.

13. You long to be back in university or school, even though you didn't like attending either one.

14. At 5.00pm on Sunday afternoons, your stress level increases dramatically because of the thought that on Monday you have to go back to work.

Tools to think creatively by David. J. Schwartz

1. Believe it can be done. When you believe something can be done, your mind will find ways to do it. Believing a solution paves the way to solution. Eliminate “impossible,” “won’t work,” “can’t do,” “no use trying,” from your thinking and speaking vocabularies.

2. Don’t let tradition paralyze your mind. Be receptive to new ideas. Be experimental. Try new approaches. Be progressive in everything you do.

3. Ask yourself daily, “How can I do better?” There is no limit to self-improvement. When you ask yourself, “How can I do better?” sound answers will appear. Try it and see.

4. Ask yourself, “How can I do more?” Capacity is a state of mind. Asking yourself this question puts your mind to work to find intelligent short-cuts. The success combination in business is: Do what you do better (improve the quality of your output), and; do more of what you do (increase the quantity of your output.)

5. Practice asking and listening. Ask and listen and you’ll obtain raw material for reaching sound decisions. Remember: Big people monopolize the listening; small people monopolize the talking.

6. Stretch your mind. Get stimulated. Associate with people who help you to think of new ideas, new ways of doing things. Mix with people of different occupational and social interests.

My prayer for the day

When I see, Lord, let it be with your heart.
When I speak, let your words ring out.
When I hear, let me know who speaks.
When I judge, let your love reign.

Amen.

Pinky Rabbit

Pinky rabbit was a lonely pink rabbit who has been dumped in large black plastic bag for a long-long time. It was not because she was no longer beautiful. It was because the little girl who used to pamper her has gotten bigger and has purchased plenty of other toys to play with. That was why Pinky was left alone by herself reminiscing the old days when she was worthy of attention.

One day, a young couple came by the house and the little lady who was once a little girl offered to give pinky rabbit. The wife received it gladly since she was expecting a baby which she hoped to give the pinky rabbit in less than 7 months.

When the hubby came home he did not know at first where to place pinky rabbit. He went to his sister room who lived with them to show her the Pinky rabbit asking her if she wanted to give it a room for a while. “It can be your pillow”. He said. However, the sister refused and did not even take a second look at Pinky Rabbit.

Pinky Rabbit upon introduction to the sister was at first overjoyed because she noticed a few other nicely placed teddy in her room including a small little rabbit with pink robe. “How sweet” she thought to herself.She even managed to give the sweetest smile to the little rabbit. She thought she was cute and would be happy to have her as friend. But when the sister did not want to give her a room she just left with a heavy sigh not knowing what the future left for her.

The brother however had a perfect plan in mind. He put Pinky rabbit just next to the mattress of where the sister usually sleeps at night. The brother thought “She can hug this when she got scared at night”. The brother gave Pinky Rabbit a wink and told her to take care of his sister. Pinky Rabbit just smile showing her gigantic front teeth to show how pleased she was to have a duty. Pinky Rabbit swore to do anything to comfort the sister.

The sister unknowingly went to bed as usual and was surprised to see the Pinky Rabbit at the side of her bed but did not really care at first. Until at the middle of the night when anxiety again hit her, then without much hesitation she grabbed Pinky Rabbit and hugged it so tightly.

Thanks to Pinky Rabbit, the sister had a peaceful night.

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Thank you bro. I know you know that I am scared at night.I am blessed indeed

Someone..to play with

I have been thinking about this lately. If I have a friend a willing friend, a soul mate or just someone who can stand playing and doing many kind of stuff with me I wanted to do a lot of things with her or him. *blushing. Aww..this is a bit embarrassing because I cannot say it outright. I just have it in mind for the * dreaming session. I have been using that *dreaming session a lot lately.

These are the things that I wish I can do with him or her;-

1. Playing sahibba. ^_^. I love word games. A person who loves to write and to read of course is in love with words too. Right??

2. Playing chess. It is always portrayed as a mind game aka an intellectual game where you have to be super intelligent to win. Is it? I don’t know. But I really wish I can learn to play Chess and play it well with someone over and over again. Not just once.

3. Going to the library or book store together and discuss about the same book that we both like. It sounds sweet to be able to discuss about something you both totally enjoyed reading.

4. Playing bowling just for the fun of it. Some girlfriends went with me a long time ago and I wish it happens a lot. I really-really wish so. It felt so good to be uninhibited for a little while.

5. Singing out loud in a room. That would be a karaoke session. I have done that a few times (2 times to be exact) but mostly I was scared and was not that much comfortable. I thought if I could go with just one friend I am comfortable with, who knows I could sing better. Hey..somebody told me I do have a nice voice..waccaaaaa…. ^___^ * grinning from ear to ear*

6. Puzzle game. I wish I have someone to help me putting a puzzle game together. I am not very good at it and in fact I hated it but I thought it was fun to see the end result. Two of my friends used to do this a lot and I really-really admire their patience. If I ever going to start playing this game again, I wish I have someone like that.

7. Fishing. Guys do this a lot but with their guy friends. I wonder if it ever crosses their mind that the ladies enjoy fishing as much as they do. That would be me. How nice if I can actually do it. * dreaming again

8. Jogging. I used to jog a lot at the park but lately I have been losing interest in doing it. I wish I have someone to company me because it is a little lonely to jog alone. As much as I wanted to stay fit, I can’t help feeling lost on my own. :P

And there are so much more but wow.. 8 are more than enough.I don’t want to be greedy.

But this is again a dream and I am still happy for whatever it is because a girl can’t have everything that she wants right? ^_^

25 Ways to Raise yourself by Aaron Lumpkin

1. Start thinking more highly of yourself.
Begin right now thinking more highly of yourself than you ever have. As you go through your days, make a conscious decision to see yourself in a more positive light. You’ll be amazed at how people will respond to you.

2. Think positive thoughts instead of negative thoughts.
Slowly, stop thinking negative thoughts and making negative comments. This include self-talk (the little voice within you) and the comments you say out loud to others. Being negative will bring you down.

3. Dream big dreams and think big thoughts.
Don’t limit yourself by dreaming small dreams and thinking small thoughts. Start thinking about just how far you could go in life. Start thinking about all the possibilities.

4. Picture yourself Succeeding.
Picture yourself succeeding in your mind. As you go through you day, picture the person you want to become. Use your imagination. Everyone has succeeded at something. Concentrate on your successes.

5. Set goals.
Write down what you want to accomplish next week, next month, and the next few years. Without goals, we wander aimlessly.

6. Read positive, Motivational Books and listen to Positive tapes.
You will start thinking like a winner when you do this. Some of the better authors include Zig Zigler, Denis Waitley, Stephen Covey, Napoleon Hill, Anthony Robbins, Norman Vincent Peale, Nathaniel Branden, and Robert Anthony.

7. Learn Some New Words.
Spend 15 minutes a day increasing your vocabulary and you’ll find that you will think differently and increase your confidence.

8. Live consciously.
Accept reality for what it is. Be active rather than passive. Do not let learned behaviours control you.

9. Live purposefully.
You make things happen. Live in such a way that you can make your dreams come true. Success isn’t an accident.

10. Don’t let setbacks hold you back from living.
Occasionally, bad things are going to happen to you; that’s nature of life. Learn not to let bad circumstances hold you back from living a meaningful life.

11. Believe in yourself.
You can do whatever you believe you can do.

12. If you don’t do something, then nothing will get better.
Focus on doing something. If you continue down the same road, you will continue arriving at the same destination. Start taking some actions to bring out winning qualities in yourself.


13. Think like a winner.
Think like a winner, do not let life pass you by.

14. Love and serve others.
The real secret of life is bringing joy to the lives of others. Pass on what you learn to your children and all those you come in contact with.

15. Take Some Risks.
The greatest rewards in life come to those who are willing to take some risks and try some new things.

16. Learn to think for yourself.
Focus on learning to think through problems and situations rather than just responding to what is going on around you.

17. Expand your appeal.
As you change your attitude and self-image, you will become more appealing to more people. This will help you in your home life, in your work, and in your social life.

18. Become a More Interesting person.
Contrary to popular belief, there is much more to life than physical appearances. People like to be around other interesting people.

19. See the Humorous side of life.
Laughter is great medicine for the soul. Don’t take life so seriously.

20. Work hard to overcome self-destructive Habits that are holding you back from being all you can be.
Get rid of or get a handle on self-destructive habits that are holding you back. Make your best effort to overcome the bad habits and behaviours that you know are hurting you and keeping you from becoming the best you can be.

21. Realize the power of the subconscious mind.
When you realize the power of the subconscious mind, you will be on your way to success.

22. Don’t invest too much energy in worrying.
There are many situations in life that you can’t do anything about.

23. Decide Your Desire to change is stronger than your desire to stay the same.
When you decide that you really want to change, you will begin changing.

24. Always, always look your best and accentuate your positive points.
Always look your best and accentuate you positive points: physical and mental. Everyone has some special attributes that others do not have. Make yours count!

25. Learn to “Let Go” and Be Yourself.
Don’t spend your life being afraid to be yourself because you worry about what others will think. Set a goal of being yourself and “letting go”. Break out of your shell and begin exploring your feelings.

1/10 satisfaction

I have been thinking about it of how if I have all of myself for me and not for the job or anyone else?. ^_^ When I am sitting down alone, just waiting for a call or waiting for a job to be tackled I am just damn bored. I wish I can plan the things I wanted to do in a given day. That might sounds silly because honestly I like what I do. It just that I am not all excited every day and the things that I do now could only give 1/10 satisfaction since I have 9 other things in mind.

If I can do what my heart desire the list of things that I wish I can do are;-

1. Learning how to sew and make it a big time hobby, sewing the kind of dresses that I like. I am so dressaholic and I am so tempted to say, I bet I can dress you to kill because I have an eye of an eagle (I bet this is not an idiom..its okay. I invented it for fun) when it comes to perfecting a dress for a girl. But that’s the Ms. Overconfident in me saying.. but since I am writing this to please myself, I see no harm in talking big to boost my own confidence. Heeeh.. ^_^

2. Learning how to makeup and make it professional enough to do others. Yes, a friend said, since you are *pretty* people will believe you to makeup for them..*hmmm…*…errrr…*cough* *cough*. I am sorry, I was thinking she was honest and maybe..I could try. Am I pretty? Well..my husband is way better looking than me.. Tee hee heee

3. Stay in a safe, comfortable place and write all I can enough to publish the kind of book that I wish to share with people. You know I am kind of scared living in a crowded area. I would prefer a house at the top of a hill. *dreamy eyes**.. ^_^ And the kind of book I would write of course since I am so into motivational kind of book I would go to that kind of area. A self - help book would be my choice. If I couldn’t put much into writing a book, a collection of poetry would be more than enough. But..well..since it’s a dream I can still dream to have thousand and thousand of book published under my ghostname : Gunsoyod. (is that a nice namee..err..I won't use that..seriously) Heeee…*blushing..Just enjoying the moment of dreaming.

4. Build my own library (only filled with the kind of books that I like and would like to recommend to others) and let people come in to have their own desire to read satiated. I would even prepare a special room for children so I can read books/fairytales to them myself + audio visual of fairytales related to the books. Wooohooo..I really love that. I really think some people never explore the heart of a child and how they can actually be moulded to a genius if only you have time to do so.

5. To build and to have my own small scale farming with chickens and ducks and lots and lots of vegetable plantation not only to sustain my living but because I just love farming. Why chickens and ducks? Because I think female ducks and chickens are the most shapely animals in the planet and male chickens are the most macho looking + arrogant kind of animals that never failed to make me chuckle. They are just amazing. Imagine when the little chicks follow the hens around..ADORABLE..I would just stare at them for hours. And then just imagine when two cocks wanted to win over a hen, they would fight..and awwww..*fighty! The best male win.. SORRY, I got carried away.

6. To learn how to bake cakes especially so I can eat cakes to my heart content. Seriously! ^_^ I can’t get enough of beautiful cakes. Luckily I am genetically engineered to be slim no matter what I eat. Thanks to my parents. ^_^

7. To have a small garden of flowers and herbs so butterfly and little birds can always come by and visit me anytime. You know I love butterflies and birds but the thought of putting birds in a cage makes me feel so miserable. How am I supposed to hear them chirping cheerfully if they are to be put in a cage. Right?

8. To rear a cat (tri-color female cat) and a dog (white female Maltese). Yeah.. its weird but tri-color cat has a special place in my heart since my last cat was a tri-colour and she has been a great companion to me. About a white maltese? It’s because its fluffy and its sooooo cute with white fur. ^_^..hehehe.

9. To have children and to take care of them all by myself not leaving them to mom or a nursery or whoever. Just me. I want to instill my own *programming in their head and even have in mind to teach them myself all the subjects called maths, science..bla bla..I am good. HEh… ^_^. Is that possible? I mean, out of all those things..this is what I want the most.. CAN I at least Have one dream to come true???

Enough of my dreamland. I got to finish my work.

It is absolutely amazing to have dreams. A blessing indeed.