I went to visit my hubby in the middle of September, just when another historical day was marked when Malaysia Day was celebrated by the whole state of west and east Malaysia. As some of you may have come to know, currently we are in a long distance marriage. ^_^ It is hard. I won't lie about that fact. The negative side is, when we need a cuddle and an intimate conversation with our soul mate, they are not right there to give us the loving that we needed.
Nonetheless, I am a happily married woman and if anyone is going to dispute with me on how unreasonable it is to be away and still keep everything intact, I won't argue with you. It might not work with everyone.The reason why it works with us is because we have struggled long enough to survive the peaks and the valleys. So, why not? ^_^
By the way, my entry for the day is not about how to survive a long distance marriage (it might touch a bit tho"). This entry is about my recent visit to my husband homeland.
I have been having a difficult time to meet and to adapt with my new big family. My PR skill is out,and so far I don't think I have fared well. Honestly, I am still very much clueless on how to become a better half of my husband. I am trying hard tho" ^_^. I guess it is just part of the challenge of becoming a new member of a family.
My last visit was again my another attempt to be closer to them. Technically I survived the ordeal but I am not quite there yet. Hmmm..^_^. My mother tried to throw me some pointers but fuh...!!, Why does it feel like a "chore". ?? ;P. It must be my introverted personality traits?
To add to that issue, my lacrimal glands functioned quite abnormally or was it my hormone shooting up that that I got tears flowing like a river for no apparent reason at all? At first it flowed because my husband was called up to work on emergency term when it has been agreed upon that we are going to spend quality time together on our own. And then again it flowed because of some menial task I was being asked to do which I was not willing to do.*shaking head*
I felt pity for my husband who was trying to work hard and to entertain the wife at the same time. I know he could not do both but the thought of letting him work and leaving me spending time on my own after planning for quite a long time to be together with him was so unbearable.
Still the minute we were together, I forgot all my selfish desire to have him to myself. I guess that was the real reason why I love this man.
When we attended the wedding reception of his cousin, I could not help but staring at my own husband. It was hard to describe why I could not take my eyes off him. The same man I have dated for ten years before tying the knot. He still kept me strongly captive with his charms on me. Now, how romantic/silly that sounds? ^_^
To cut it short, my visit was still one of my best moments. Likewise even though I am facing a lot of troubles in pursuing this relationship earlier on and now that we are married, I still believe when love struck you, you become the servant of it for the rest of your life.
In conclusion, no time is a bad time when you have the one close to your heart. Regardless of the peaks and the valleys and what people said, it is you who knows the content of your own heart. What makes you leap in joy and bow down with sorrow, is your own business.
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