I miss talking to someone. Not anyone in particular, just a stranger. If i were to imagine a scenario it would be. . .something like I was sitting next to a stranger without a face..and with that we comfortably chit chat the night away without actually talking whatever matter most, just a story of here and there..things like that.
I feel a little bit restless today. There are many thoughts running through my head. Some bad things and a few good things which of course if you analyzed what I have just said I am putting much weight on the bad things and little or no attention to the good things.
Perhaps I just had a bad day today so my thoughts couldnt function kindly and my body was responding badly as well. The adrenaline keeps flowing out and therefore stopped me from feeling at rest.
You see I really wanted to feel at ease right now. I wanted to sleep but I can' t.
I try to find some comfort by thinking of home but home reminded me of other unsettled matters and so are other things. Have you ever thought that way of either being burdened by everything or being a burden to everyone? Its like if possible you should just live in a cave away from society or people? Have you ever felt that way?
Its because I am not thinking right, at this particular moment, right?
Stranger, my reader,
I am just going to be honest with how I feel right now. I feel mostly upset but also I am angry. Angry in the sense that because I wanted to live so badly I couldn't just accept things the way it is, I have to think of way that least dissappoint me.
I don't feel helpless, but I really want to believe in friend, companion, stranger and society because right now I have lost trust in people, friend what more society.
How do I live like this?
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